On my heart: Just one surprise after another…

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If you really knew me, you’d know that the last two weeks of my life have been surreal. Seriously!
You’d know that I woke up one morning incredibly weak and unable to stand on my own.
You’d know that I went to the doctor thinking that I had the flu and was sent straight to the hospital where I was admitted for internal bleeding and tachycardia.
You’d know that I experienced literally being in shock. Shock that this was happening. Whatever this was.

You would know that I spent four dreadful days in that hospital – and that the first two were a blur.
You would know that after undergoing multiple procedures – they weren’t able to locate the source of the bleed.
That it took four days of meds and two blood transfusions to stabilize me enough to send me home.
You would know that coming home to my girls was the BEST feeling, ever!
That being away from them was harder than I can express.

You would know that my new team of doctors and specialists are phenomenal!
That I am confident that they will find the source of the problem and that I will be healed!
You would know that daily trips to the lab, tests, and appointments with doctors have replaced my normal life.
You would know that my stats have been improving and that the doctors believe the bleed has stopped :)
You would know that we still have MANY unanswered questions.
You would know that I am still recovering.
You would know that while I am physically quite weak, I am starting to feel stronger every day.

You would know that I have my moments where it doesn’t feel real that this has happened.
Moments when I feel like I’m going to wake up and this will have all been a crazy, whirlwind dream.
Moments when I let my mind wander to what could have happened, what almost happened, what still may happen – You would know these moments terrify me.

If you really knew me, you would know that I believe all things happen for a reason. His reason.
You would know that I don’t like to waste time trying to figure out “why” things happen; I trust the Lord’s timing.
You would know that in addition to feeling scared and confused, I feel grateful, lucky and loved.

You would know that I *LOVE* this little design company that I created.
You would know that it is a joy and a privilege for me to create for you and your sweet kids.
You would know that it pains me to have to do this, but I have to stop taking DBD orders until I am fully recovered.
You would know that I am so sorry friends!
That I had BIG plans for the upcoming holidays and it hurts my heart not to be able to just spring back to action.
You would know that I need a little time to get well.

If you really knew me, you’d know how much I value you being here, reading my blog, supporting my passions.
You would know that I am praying for you and wishing you the best, always!

xx
M


PS – Just because I need to slow down, doesn’t mean you won’t have some GREAT opportunities to score some One Of A Kind Daydream Believers Designs! I’ve recently joined forces with Boutique Challenge Auctions, and will be offering you some very limited edition, one of a kind Daydream Believers Designs! These pieces will be sold “auction style” with starting bids at 50-60% off the retail value! Fun, right? I will share more details soon! :)